Monday, October 19, 2009

Blood Boil, Heart Hurts.

I have 3 younger brothers.
Yes, my blood brothers.

They like to fight over small things which I thought only girls do that. -.-
I don't understand why they like to fight so much.
Is it because they know whenever they fight they make me upset and they want me to be upset?

Every single time I talk to them and they ignore me, you know how hurt I am? My heart hurts like it's going to burst. I feel so hurt that I really want to disown them. But they are my brothers. My blood brothers whom I grow up taking care of, giving them the best that I can give.

Everytime I think that whatever I give is not enough, they have to prove to me that they are not worth my care. They act like I owe them my life. Why the heck do I have to care for these people who only care about themselves?

Work is not very smooth and I'm quite stressed out by it and whenever I come home to see them fight I just feel like breaking down. Like I can't breath and the only breather I can get is to just die.

Because when you love someone there is no way not to care. So obviously they don't love me at all so they don't care about me. In short, they don't give a shit about this useless sister who cannot give them one computer each so they don't fight every single day over the bloody computer and internet.


samantha said...


uglyfatchick (Chicky) said...

Thank you! :)

ea said...

dun worry too much.
im sure they care abt u.
its just tt they are still too inmature so they fught over little things. Rmb boys mature a lot slower den girls?

BeLiNdA said...

sis, if i were u, i will just not let anyone of them use the computer till they learn how to share.

uglyfatchick (Chicky) said...

ea: haiz.. they look like they will never mature. :(

Ber: They will fight even more!
It's useless. They keep saying got important things to do.. need to use computer.. blah blah blah.. -.-

BeLiNdA said...


uglyfatchick (Chicky) said...

他们就像你的孩子。。。 等你有孩子你就知道了。。

ea said...

dun worry, they will be more mature prolly aft 20yrs old...
u just need to tahan until then

uglyfatchick (Chicky) said...

20 years???? They are like 12,13,14 now leh.. at least 6 more years! :(

ea said...

Jia You le